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Friday, December 09, 2005 2:10 AM
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it can say its a long time i've ever blogged a not smiley face on my title.. alrig.. i will have to go abide wif the decision she have ordered mi to do.. she always dote on my bro.. or i can say the guys in the family.. it was nv my turn she allows mi to do my own decision.. NEVER.! wat else can i say!! she's my mum! i dun wanna be rebellious!! not at all!! but i just cant stand the way she's being such unreasonable.!! is not tht i wanna fail my o levels!! or maybe i cant even get into sec5.. but is working in the first two months really affect if i seriously wan to study!? and the environment allows mi!? doubt this environment allows mi to do tht also!! nagging nagging which i hate the most... i just cant understand y they like to nag so much.. but i know when they nag.. they'er for our own sake... but wun they just understand our feeling.!!?? talking about my mum.. she tell mi to go overstudies AGAIN! y now?? if it was mi of the beginning of the year.. i would st away agree wif tht.. cos at tht period.. there's nothing pulling mi back away from tht.. but now, i would think twice.. even thrice.. i cant bear to leave my galfrens here!! all those beautiful thing. the only factor tht push mi go is the gain in exprience..

initially had a interview at cafe cartel.. which have high percentage of having employ!! and thru' jo's mouth.. i know i will sure be a freaking nice exprience to have!! and i could be a working partner of wanqi again! its really a fun time working wif her.!! and both of us are siao de.. tis enlighten my night..

but in mid-night.. wat i got from her was disappointment.. a real disappointment.. initially was discussing wif my sister.. asking her.. working at bishan would be nearer to my house compared to bukit panjang(bp)

[she said: bishan]

so i changed my decision of working at bp.. cos it's seriously far too far!!

[she said agian: wait till mama come home den ask her..]

never had i expect tht she would DISAGREE!!

[my mum said: NO! mei de shang liang!]

cant u imagine.?heart was totally broken.. think of the new life is just like the bubbles, so happily..but i suddenly sees it flying away and away from mi.. finally i hear a 'pop' sound.. it burst in front of mi... tis deepen my hearts.. =( can u just imagine.. a glimsp of hope of happiness is coming your way.. and hopes every thing will come in your way.. but.. it din realise =( and i just HAD TO let my unwilling hands off the fate..

thru tis.. i just really have to summit to life.. i seriously have no fate wif cafe cartel.. =( was not shortlisted when the 1st interview.. 2nd interview was counted shortlisted.. but due to some darn reasons i cant work there! *cindy, ni jiu ren ming bahs!*
to joling: im so sorry bout all those things i've entrusted you to do.. i think this holidays will be mi visiting you more often den you do! alrig! =( tc my dear!! *ahe..ch_a..m* i shall not be so bad!! help mi tell tht nic sorry also! put aeroplane*althou i dun wish to put..* =(
to the person i commented a few entries ago: i supposed u know very well im stating about you.. but i seriously and sincerely hereby to apologise to u for those nasty comments on you.. serious!! but there's one thing i can say.. the things u've wrote on some where which both of us knows.. wanna say!! i seriously can smile at you and say i din do tht!! i can swear or watever so!! never i've done tht.. tht was in my heart.. MAYBE *im saying maybe.. so tht might not be true.. it's just some question marks in my heart.* in ur heart there some one said some thing which i dunno.. and makes you think i will do tht to you! seriously who will knows tht man?! maybe we cant salvage this friendship but i hope it will remain this stage which we'll go out once in a blue moon.. lastly i wanna say again.. im sorry. =( [p.s. pls tag if u've seen this.. im quite guilty of tht]

to wanqi: if you're here to see, just read.. maybe we're just fated to work at yoshi! but not else where.. but i wanna say! you're a real counter runner to be wif..

love you guys loads!! but im still very sad..
being sad just sucks..

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